Saturday, August 19, 2006
I Need You To Love Me
I have found myself struggling this week to really put out there what I want to say. I was driving home from Church on Sunday, and it all clicked. The conversations that I had participated in the night before with Angela Messenger, and the conversations that continued with a friend at Church before Sunday School. The actual Sunday School class as well. But when all was said and done, I could not sit down and put my thoughts together in one, coherent message. I mean, I have the Sunday Conversations to finish, and the Lonely, Impatient Christian series to complete. All I can say is that Satan is coming at me full force.

For the past 3 weeks, I have had the strong call from Christ to continue to post. I can hear the small, still voice telling me to share with others, both on the blog and anywhere I meet them, the glorious wonders of Christ's love. Needless to say, I have had a little trouble with that. I started an in depth conversation with Angela Messenger, only to slack off of it by Tuesday. I know that I have been busy, but as my previous post, I'm Back....I Think...No, Really, I Am, stated, I continue to have trouble with just taking that time to reflect on God's word and let it speak to me, so that I can speak to others. I have read a few more chapters in Hebrews, followed by a little bit of Acts, but I have not really applied what I have learned and shared it with others.

Listening to the radio today, KSBJ here in Spring, TX, I heard Barlow Girl's "I Need You to Love Me." That song always touches me, every single time that I hear it, and reminds me of just how much God loves me, even when I am being stupid, or I am failing in my daily battle with Satan.

Below are the lyrics. Please really read through them and think about the truth they portray of God's love for all of us, who are so unworthy of the love He gives and the blood He shed. As Adoro te Devote said in a response to a comment about a posting: "I don't deserve God's love. And that's why I love him so much." Thanks Angela Messenger for pointing out this post. :)

I Need You to Love Me by Barlow Girl

Why, why are You still here with me

Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

PS: I may mention some more of their stuff later. It is all good stuff! (from both a spiritual and a musical stand point)

Lord, I am so thankful that You love me as You do. Help me to always be grateful and gracious when it comes to the sacrifices that you have made just so I can be free to love and worship You. Even if I was the only person on earth, I know that You still would have died so that I may live. You love me that much.

Help me to continue to remain focused on what is truly important in this world and not so on the lies Satan lays at my feet in what seem to be minute by minute every day. Please continue to speak to me in a way that I can understand, and let Your still, small voice resonate like a clanging gong in my heart, calling me to Your will. I am Your vessel, You are the with me as You will. I ask this in your most Holy Name, Jesus Christ. Amen.

  posted at 9:58 PM

At 9:57 AM, Blogger Angela Messenger said...

Keep the comments coming JD. I look forward to hearing from you.


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